My Son Needs an External
Brain
My son still hates God for letting him
come here with "brain damage" to a place that didn't want him.
He makes decisions for himself based on a very childish, unrealistic view of
the world, tutored by every horrible thing he can get his hands on. My
son is truly "hell bent." Determined to go as low as he
can.
He will not take instruction of any
sort because his pride interprets that as an insult. He doesn't
"get" instruction anyway because he can't reason and he doesn't hear
correctly. He trusts anyone who is being nice to him this minute and
doesn't trust me. He is totally paranoid. He is afraid all the time
and makes every decision based on "who's got [his] back. He walks
into every new situation and picks out the "baddest dude" there and
"sucks up" to him in hopes that that guy will keep him safe.
My son is a chameleon. It is like
he has no personality of his own. He absorbs the personality of those
around him. I can always tell when he's under the influence of crazy
people because then he is crazy.
He needs a loving, trustworthy external
brain to help him navigate this life until such time as he has the desire to
seek the pure intelligence Heaven offers. He is "blind" now and
needs a "seeing eye dog" to keep him safe.
Maureen
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